Modern society is so wholly unsuited for a soul like mine.
As the Goo Goo Dolls say, "Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?"
Your heart and soul don't really matter, everyone is judging you by how successful you are.
Maybe online people would, but in the real world when someone wants to know what you're doing, "today I worked on not wanting to die" is never gonna be an acceptable answer to their question. You always need to have a job and nobody's gonna care if you're inches away from the edge unless it impedes your ability to work.
This is a bit of a sulking post but sometimes this is the only thing I can think about.
(title related) Trying so desperately not to write these characters in a romantic relationship and yet all their feelings about each other are typically reserved for romantic pairings.
No seriously they are not lovers but pretty much the only reason they're not is because I say they're not?
Well, I really think that it's more of a matter of how our media portrays things normally. All these things are "reserved" for lovers so much that it is very hard to see friends feeling this way about each other. Maybe I'm just not articulating things well right now.
But other than the feelings the characters have, I only have the barest shreds of plot and vague characterization (other than the feelings).
The two songs that create large inspiration for this story are:
Love To The Stars - Breeze v. UFO & Lost Witness
Clarity - Zedd ft. Foxes
So that doesn't help with the fact that they're not an actual couple.
It bothers me when I have all these characters' feelings but not enough of a story to do anything about them yet. Maybe the remedy for that is just to start writing something and see how it works out. But I'm just not sure I'm prepared enough for even that yet.
Sometimes the weight of the world pushes us down.
I am only one person and there's only so much I can do.
You can't save everyone. You can't fix everything.
Sometimes you have to take a step back and leave things up to the other person (And honestly, even if you can't see that, in the end it happens whether you consent to it or not. You will always be a step back.)
In the end, there is only so much you can do.
Even though it will almost always feel like I could be doing more.